i'm really getting fed up with all of the bullshit at my school. if it weren't for the fact that i only have to be here for two more days, then i think i would actually go on a shooting rampage. so much wrong has been done to me in just the past week and it's really starting to wear me down. and besides that, staying after school until five o'clock or later is driving me absolutely insane. i don't know how much longer i can handle seeing these same fucking faces, the same idiotic narcisstic teachers, the friends that generally like me, but don't want to have to deal with me outside of school or for long periods of time (they always have someone better to be with), the slutty rich girls that wear their juicy couture outfits to death, and, god, i'm babbling, but i am just so angry and full of hate right now. i am quite stressed. i am looking forward to thursday when i don't have any more exams and will be stress free for at least a day and i can sit around and watch movies or maybe just sit around and do nothing at all. that would mke me happy. anything would be better than being here, going through the same routine everyday. wake up at 6; brush teeth; wash face; take shower; put on clothes; drive to school; stay at school until 6; come home; eat; do homework; sleep; repeat five days a week. i want a life that i enjoy. i want to be able to like myself and say that i am happy with my relationships and with my personality. that's all i want. but it appears to be too much for me to ask.

i'm not even in the mood for complaining anymore.

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