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1. tom petty, "zombie zoo"
2. nick drake, "fly"
3. nick drake, "at the chimes of a city clock"
4. nick drake, "milk and honey"
5. kevin shields, "city girl"
6. my bloody valentine, "loomer"
7. blonde redhead, "futurism vs. passeism"
8. blonde redhead, "symphony of treble"
9. blonde redhead, "oh james"
10. my bloody valentine, "i only said"
11. my bloody valentine, "what you want"
12. nico, "the fairest of the seasons"
13. pj harvey, "the letter"
14. q and not u, "hooray for humans"
i am finally out of school. actually, i've been out since last week, sitting around watching court television and playing video games (see entry before last titled, "omg, metroid prime!!!!"). i am in the process of making plans for friday and saturday nights for myself so i can actually get some fresh air. speaking of air, it's been extremely hot here in chicago this past week. killer humidity, ninety degree temps, etc. and there is no air conditioning at my house.
okay, someone answer me this: is it really weird that i make up people in my head and talk to them? not actually speak to them, but i create conversations and scenarios that i replay in my head to entertain myself and make myself feel less...alone. god. i really ought to not post that. it's really embarassing. i think i need therapy. just someone to talk to that i have no emotional attachment to so that i can tell about all of these strange things in my mind. to get some release. maybe i wouldn't need the people if i had someone to spill these thoughts upon.
today i suddenly had a gazillion thoughts that told me that i was going to have a horrible time while i'm away and that i wouldn't be able to find anyone like me and that i would not get along with my teacher and that the class will be really hard and i will have no friends and blah blah blah. it was all rather frightening and overwhelming. i just had to take a deep breath and realize that this is the summer of alia! this will be the best three months of my life, dammit. i promised myself that. it's gotten off to a slow start, but it will all work out in the end. all will be well. for a change.
i want to listen to my mix now. goodnight.
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